What can you say about a girl who lost her boyfriend by the time the two of them were about to exchange their engagement rings?
She plunged into deepest ocean of
trauma?
She lost her faith in god?
She was so madly immersed in the
love of her boyfriend that after he was gone, forever, she wrote an immortal
love story in his memory?
Your perception does matter but
wait. I have something better for you.
Today, I would love to share a “Love
Story” of a brave girl, Simran (changed name) who survived. I know there
are many girls who commit suicide or submit themselves to death on failing in
love. Please do not do anything shameful instead read and forward the message.
The Unknown Call
I remember, it was the month of October,
to be specific, it was 2nd October 2010. I was helping my mother in making
dinner, suddenly my phone rang. It was
an unknown number but I picked up the call in curiosity. I heard the voice of a
boy on the other side and immediately cut the call. I put my phone on silent mode
and told my mother that it was a wrong number.
Whole night i was crawling and
tossing and turning up and down on my bed in the curiosity of knowing about the
boy.
Next day on 3rd October (Sunday)
as there was no one at my place I texted on the number, “Who is this?”
“I’m Raj (changed name)”, he
replied. I didn't reply as I didn't know him.
Later in the evening I received a
call from him and strangely we talked for an hour. We dig into each other’ past,
families, likes and dislikes, friends.
Moreover, I hung up because my
parents came back, but we continued the conversations through text messages.
There was an immense change in me that
my friends were noticing. I was getting more happy, more glowing, and was
spending my most of the time on phone.
The First and Forever Meetings
Finally on 15th November 2010 we
met for the first time. In the beginning I was very nervous but sitting next to
him was not scary at all. He played my favorite songs which he had asked
indirectly over phone. It made me blushed. Whenever we met he used to give me a
white rose and i used to keep every rose with me. He was super foodie and love
to conquer special and yummy food. He turned me the same.
As the time passed we were getting
too close to each other. Texting day and night, early morning meetings and all other
crazy love stuffs made “I” and “Him”, “We”. I bunked my classes and he bunked his
office many a times and went for movies, shopping, adventure etc.
Gradually, time passes the
beautiful memories being captured; the intimacy level made us more close to
each other. Sooner, we both realized that there was a bond built up which made
us fall for each other. The seconds, the minutes, the hours, the days we had
spent together were fabulous and unforgettable. There was time when i need to
choose between my friends and him. We fought, we cried but by the end of the
day we both remained together.
He always wanted me to dress up
like his princess; he pampered me as her “Darling princess”.
The Family introduction
After 5 years of relationship when
we both got so serious for each other, we told our parents. It was not so
difficult to convince our parents as we both were ready as per their conditions.
Like i had to leave non veg completely, he had to reduce his weight and all.
Finally, on 17th November 2014 our
family met and our relation became official. Touching everyone's feet, becoming
center of attraction was such a beautiful feeling, that’s what I wanted.
The Marriage Proposal
On 17th December, 2014,
exactly after one month when our relationship had been official, he proposed me
for marriage in a very creative way.
He firstly took me too India Gate
(I) where we had my favorite street food, amazing photo session, roaming hand
in hand. Then we went to Le Meridien (L) for amazing Chinese lunch. Later by
evening he stopped the car in the middle of Gurgaon Highway and asked me to
come out. He bowed on his knees put an anklet around my foot and completed the
(U) by saying “WILL YOU BE MY WIFE?” “I will love you forever”.
People passing through must be envy.
It was such a beautiful feeling. It was
actually the beginning of my courtship period.
Official Celebrations
After that with a beginning of a
new year, 2015, we celebrated our relationship many a times. In the series of
events like my 26th birthday, our first official valentine’s day,
surprise family dinner, his brother’s birthday, unlimited gifts, beautiful
photo sessions, posting on Facebook, we and our families lived fully.
The Karma
We were supposed to get married on
23rd November 2015 but it was not in our destiny. After very hectic and busy 6
months of courtship period, there were situations when we had lots of fights. I
never insisted him to go against his family just for me.
In June, 2015, a sudden storm of
extreme sadness breezed in our relationship. We were getting detached brutally,
my prince charming was not mine, and my tears were not his. He was not the same
person I was in love with.
He was always proud of my career,
my beauty but suddenly he was getting irritate from this.
So, finally one day we both ended
up the relationship rather than moving a wrong step ahead. It was tough for me
but he had decided that this marriage cannot last for a year or two. I was broken
into pieces. My wedding attire, shopping, wedding venue, my jewelries, my Dream
to be a perfect bride, pre-wedding honeymoon plans all got shattered. Now, it was
all finished. He walked away with a kiss of goodbye and i was standing there,
watching him leave, and burying me completely.
The Healing
I took very long to forget him; it
was very hard for me to survive without him. Apart from all my family members, my
sister and brother-in-law were the biggest support to make me get over this
situation. Months passed, i planned to move on and joined the world of
corporates and kept myself busy in work and hard life.
I always used to say to him, “Agar
tum mujhse shaadi nhi karoge na toh main USA shift ho jaungi, tumse bahut door.”
Now i realized that whatever we
speak and demand from the universe, it gives us the same thing. Finally my I20
came on 29 April, 2016. Soon I’ll get the visa and will fly to USA in July for
MBA to live the most awaited and best days of my life of success and only success.
I, Deepankar Tripathi, wish her all
the best for all of her future endeavors.
The Purpose
I am sharing her real life “Love Story”
on my blog with a purpose. It is dedicated to all the beautiful and elegant
girls who give up their life unnecessarily or get into depression and commit
suicide just for a “Boy” and get trapped into a “LOVE GAME”. The breakup or separation
kills you, threatens you but remember that your life is more
important for your parents, family, and friends.
“LIVE FOR
THEM WHO MAKE YOU HAPPY NOT BY YOUR LOOKS BUT BY YOUR BEAUTIFUL HEART.”
#Appeal
If you have any story or a message that you want to share with people, do let me know. I will be highly obliged to share your valuable thoughts and messages via my blog.
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I was a complete mess.
Crumbled, fallen from the crest.
Darkness was all around
My heart stopped beating to my favorite sound.
Anyone can see it through my eyes
Because i was cutted and sliced.
My nights were going so lame
But still i have taken all the blame.
I wanted a new hand to hold
To relive all the emotions that i sold ( in December nights ).
Time passed and here begins a new year.
Suddenly you came in my life
It was January six.
I left all the scars behind
But my heart was not still fixed.
Suddenly It all changed...a new life...a new me.
It was like an angel sent to me.
You are more beautiful than the girl in dreams i see
Your shine, your presence fucked away the darkness hidden in my soul
It was like the world is nothing, we are the whole.
Time passed
I was getting close to you,
So was you.
I was getting attached to you,
So was you.
I fall in love with you.
We talked about it
You were so polite
You said not to love you
I asked why?
You said you will be hurt
I said i will not if you will be my side
You denied
I still don't know why?
I drunk love
I smoked love
My liver is failed
Lungs are about to
Heart is still beating
crush it!!
When my hangover was gone
I realized
I was friend-zoned
May be friends for whole life.
And i remember that fight two thirty AM
As everything was slipping right out of my hands
When i was crying
You handled me with care
I braced myself for the "goodbye"
Coz that's all i have ever known.
You don't wanna be tamed in a relationship tag.
You are a free bird
And i was turning swag.
But now it was too late to face the reality
Because i was not getting you as in my dreams i see.
I sacrificed my insanity.
I switched myself over to all the things that you want me to be
Because you were the best thing ever happened to me
I do not want to lose you.
But still i have a fear
The day you will flew away will be the death of me.
Crumbled, fallen from the crest.
Darkness was all around
My heart stopped beating to my favorite sound.
Anyone can see it through my eyes
Because i was cutted and sliced.
My nights were going so lame
But still i have taken all the blame.
I wanted a new hand to hold
To relive all the emotions that i sold ( in December nights ).
Time passed and here begins a new year.
Suddenly you came in my life
It was January six.
I left all the scars behind
But my heart was not still fixed.
Suddenly It all changed...a new life...a new me.
It was like an angel sent to me.
You are more beautiful than the girl in dreams i see
Your shine, your presence fucked away the darkness hidden in my soul
It was like the world is nothing, we are the whole.
Time passed
I was getting close to you,
So was you.
I was getting attached to you,
So was you.
I fall in love with you.
We talked about it
You were so polite
You said not to love you
I asked why?
You said you will be hurt
I said i will not if you will be my side
You denied
I still don't know why?
I drunk love
I smoked love
My liver is failed
Lungs are about to
Heart is still beating
crush it!!
When my hangover was gone
I realized
I was friend-zoned
May be friends for whole life.
And i remember that fight two thirty AM
As everything was slipping right out of my hands
When i was crying
You handled me with care
I braced myself for the "goodbye"
Coz that's all i have ever known.
You don't wanna be tamed in a relationship tag.
You are a free bird
And i was turning swag.
But now it was too late to face the reality
Because i was not getting you as in my dreams i see.
I sacrificed my insanity.
I switched myself over to all the things that you want me to be
Because you were the best thing ever happened to me
I do not want to lose you.
But still i have a fear
The day you will flew away will be the death of me.
Conversations of last few days were saying a lotI was putting my efforts to figure out the consequences
And you were trying to hide it......so you succeed.
What about those late night talks till 4 a.m.
We were so happy together like a perfect pair
You never wanted to end up......so was I.
What about the salsa moves
Both were waiting so long.
You always wanted to submit yourself in my arms
And look deep inside my heart through my eyes.
I promised you to drive you on my feet
As the music goes
It seems more romantic
Like a twilight love affair.
But suddenly everything disappeared
Like it never happened and it was nothing.
A half of me is saying
Don't let her go
She might be the one
You always wanted,
You always prayed to god.
A better half of me is saying
She is just an another girl.
You promised me that you'll come back soon
But i know you won't
It seems you always wanted to escape
And now you are gone.
I'm missing you so much
And it's hurting a lot.
But soon I'll get over it
Like I always did in the past.
My friends are saying
Call her and say
You need her
You want her
Say now,
how much you love her.
But there's a rush inside me
A half of me is saying
Don't let her go
She might be the one
You always wanted,
You always prayed to god.
A better half of me is saying
She is just an another girl.
If she wanted to go
Let her go
Don't hurt your pride
So this time i'm listening to my head
What about heart??
It gets break all the time.
Now all i know is
I will get over it
Like i always did in the past
I will survive!!
May be you say it's a bullshit or may be you don't care.
May be you say i'm schizophrenic or may be you say i'm vulnerable.
But baby, in the crave for your love
I was too blind to see
That i'm losing myself just like blurred images on a reflectory.
My side is collapsed with your thoughts, your expressions, your smile, your talks and your eye-contacts
and your side......unaffected......completely unreflected !!!
But now......no more.
I don't wanna hold it anymore.
If you are reading this......better be sure
This is my last song for you.
Now it's too difficult for me
To take that rage and put it on a page
With standing in the shattered stage and recalling all that worst phase......again and again.
May be i'm done or may be i'm giving up.
May be it's little early or maybe it's too late
But baby, now it's too tough
To live like this
Holding the emotions on the verge of a bliss.
I waited for so long
and behaved the way i never belong.
I changed myself to come into your world
But you showed me hard times
Crying, dying and singing sad rhymes.
But now......no more.
I don't wanna hold it anymore.
If you are reading this......better be sure
This is my last song for you.
Now it's too difficult for me
To take that rage and put it on a page
With standing in the shattered stage and recalling all that worst phase......again and again.
RIP THE SAGA OF SELF-DESTRUCTION (AN UN REPUTED LOVE) : 16 SEPT- 24 DEC'13 (100 days).
May be you say i'm schizophrenic or may be you say i'm vulnerable.
But baby, in the crave for your love
I was too blind to see
That i'm losing myself just like blurred images on a reflectory.
My side is collapsed with your thoughts, your expressions, your smile, your talks and your eye-contacts
and your side......unaffected......completely unreflected !!!
But now......no more.
I don't wanna hold it anymore.
If you are reading this......better be sure
This is my last song for you.
Now it's too difficult for me
To take that rage and put it on a page
With standing in the shattered stage and recalling all that worst phase......again and again.
May be i'm done or may be i'm giving up.
May be it's little early or maybe it's too late
But baby, now it's too tough
To live like this
Holding the emotions on the verge of a bliss.
I waited for so long
and behaved the way i never belong.
I changed myself to come into your world
But you showed me hard times
Crying, dying and singing sad rhymes.
But now......no more.
I don't wanna hold it anymore.
If you are reading this......better be sure
This is my last song for you.
Now it's too difficult for me
To take that rage and put it on a page
With standing in the shattered stage and recalling all that worst phase......again and again.
RIP THE SAGA OF SELF-DESTRUCTION (AN UN REPUTED LOVE) : 16 SEPT- 24 DEC'13 (100 days).
I'm dying inside
But you are not replying at all
I'm losing my self control
But you are testing my patience
I'm generally a patient man...but now it's getting harder
My patient is lost somewhere between a border line
I hope i won't cross that
I'll be fine
But it's enough from your side
I'm not getting what's on your mind
You are a complete mystery.
I'm dying inside
But you are not replying at all
I'm losing my self control
But you are testing my patience
I'm generally a patient man...but now it's getting harder
My patient is lost somewhere between a border line.
If you never wanted this to happen
Then what was that...??
Those eye-contacts, those smiles
Those sharing of unsaid emotions
Awaken up the inner soul of mine
I wanna be a saint of you, a beauty of divine.
But now it's getting harder
My patient is lost somewhere between a border line
I hope i won't cross that
I'll be fine
But it's enough from your side
I'm not getting what's on your mind
You are a complete mystery.
Give me a chance to make myself clear
To say some words without any fear
You'll know my intentions and i'll be freed from the load i'm carrying
I don't want my heart to burst
So please drive it slow
It's not the carnival of my rust
I'm already hurt by the arrow of your bow (eyes).
I don't wanna irritate you
I don't wanna play with you
These feelings are real
I wanna pour my heart out
And make you feel special
No mind games....my mind is dead
When it's all about you my love.
But now it's getting harder
My patient is lost somewhere between a border line
I hope i won't cross that
I'll be fine
But it's enough from your side
I'm not getting what's on your mind
You are a complete mystery.....some unfolded pages of a history!!!
Give me a chance to make myself clear
To say some words without any fear
You'll know my intentions and i'll be freed from the load I'm carrying.
It's the matter of three words
But the meaning is only one.
Then why it dies inside us...??
Hard to say, harder to survive
Why there's an unnecessary loneliness...??
I'm in you
You are in me
Just because of you i exist,
Because of me you are.
The attachment of two hearts is mere a game of destiny
Not everyone gets love here in life
We are lucky that we got this fire and desire
Not everyone gets love here in life.
What is life without love...??
What is worth living without you...??
Every happiness is just because of you
You are the pillar of this meaningful bond we share
If we meet everything is right
Then why we are strange like this...??
I'm in you
You are in me
Just because of you i exist,
Because of me you are.
The attachment of two hearts is mere a game of destiny
Not everyone gets love here in life
We are lucky that we got this fire and desire
Not everyone gets love here in life.
You are affection,
Passion of mine.
Your company is a gift of my prayers
When hearts are met
Then why there are distances like this...??
Either you say or I say
Till when we will hide this behind friendship.
I'm in you
You are in me
Just because of you i exist,
Because of me you are.
The attachment of two hearts is mere a game of destiny
Not everyone gets love here in life
We are lucky that we got this fire and desire in life
Not everyone gets love here in life.
Just because of you i exist,
Because of me you are.
Just because of you i exist,
Because of me you are......
But the meaning is only one.
Then why it dies inside us...??
Hard to say, harder to survive
Why there's an unnecessary loneliness...??
I'm in you
You are in me
Just because of you i exist,
Because of me you are.
The attachment of two hearts is mere a game of destiny
Not everyone gets love here in life
We are lucky that we got this fire and desire
Not everyone gets love here in life.
What is life without love...??
What is worth living without you...??
Every happiness is just because of you
You are the pillar of this meaningful bond we share
If we meet everything is right
Then why we are strange like this...??
I'm in you
You are in me
Just because of you i exist,
Because of me you are.
The attachment of two hearts is mere a game of destiny
Not everyone gets love here in life
We are lucky that we got this fire and desire
Not everyone gets love here in life.
You are affection,
Passion of mine.
Your company is a gift of my prayers
When hearts are met
Then why there are distances like this...??
Either you say or I say
Till when we will hide this behind friendship.
I'm in you
You are in me
Just because of you i exist,
Because of me you are.
The attachment of two hearts is mere a game of destiny
Not everyone gets love here in life
We are lucky that we got this fire and desire in life
Not everyone gets love here in life.
Just because of you i exist,
Because of me you are.
Just because of you i exist,
Because of me you are......
It's been so long to feel your Grace
But still there's something deep down
In the Staircase of my Heart
That is enough to make me feel Alive,,,
instead of being so much Broken!!
It's not my Innocence,
It's not my Care
Where was my Sense...??
Why i didn't Share...??
That we can make a Perfect Pair... <3
I won't forget you my First Love
The Days, Dawn and the Nights in the Club
Even in Drinks and Smokes in the Pub
I still see you, I still feel your presence.
That's why i Drink More,
I Smoke More.
What's that Life in which there's no Pain for sure
The Pain of being Broken,
The Regret of being Unspoken...
I wrote our Name on the Sand of a Sea Shore
I usually go there, in the Hope to see your Footprints;
to feel your Fragrance.
But nothing i get......except your Absence,
except my Lonesome Existence.
Was i that much Bad......??
A Psycho or Mad......??
Was there any single moment i made u Sad......??
Or it was just my Innocence, Simplicity, Love and Care......??
Whatever it was, i know the fault would be Mine
Because you are the Princess and you are Divine
My Hope of Non-Relevant Life and my Faded Shine!!
I've just a last single Wish
No Regret, No Pain
Without any Sign...how much i Missed......??
Would you come back to that sea-shore......??
Not to see me, even not to see our Name...
Come and Save my Name...from the Growing Waves
Because it's better to be Erased by your Footprints
At-least it'll give me a Satisfaction....
of Touching your Feet from my Hand ( from which I've written our name )
But it's a Request,
Please leave your name Unaffected...Unremoved...Unerased
So that in my next Births
Or whenever i come to this Earth
I can Wait there for you......an Unchanged and Selfish YOU......!!!
